release...

I haven't been writing. Duh.

Writing has always saved me from having to keep things to myself. It is my excuse for whining, being furious, and all the gory things that are unhealthy for you.

But these days, I am just inarticulate, even when I write. Words don't flow as easily. And my frustrations are buried in the things that have to be accomplished, and, more positively, by the joys that the company of my family have brought. Kerol and Ricci being here is just a breath of fresh air. Tired, yes (Ricci is just tireless), but laughing. With them around, I see the value of bigger and more important things. And it becomes so apparent to me what type of people you should surround yourself with: people who care about you, people from whom you can learn from, people who will inspire you, and people who enjoy your company. It is only when you have such people around you that you can do these things for your world, to pay it forward.

I miss non-superficial relationships. I miss things having deeper meaning.

There should be more sensible people around.

Is it really easier if a person just would not care so much than for everyone to exert an effort to care a little more?

So, I look around me and there are so many things that I have been stalling on. My computer area is a mess: magazines, receipts, catalogues, everything. I haven't posted my NY pictures on multiply, I haven't written any reviews on all the movies I've seen for the past 2 months. I just have lost that energy. And finally, I am posting an entry here, you know, just because.

So this is the adult life. You have to balance work, family, relationships, dreams and aspirations. In reality, one of course outweighs the others. And this one might not even be what life is about. But, how exactly can we not tip off?

I'm rambling. I hate it. See, inarticulate.