honestly

Taken from Kerol's:

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? -- not wearing any

2. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?-- my stupid iPod that my iTunes cannot detect

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?-- doing this, while trying to fix my iPod

4. Honestly, what did you do today?-- i did... 3 times this morning... hahaha! and, i settled a bunch of stuff that required me to be on the phone with customer service reps. For what it's worth, this customer is always right!

5. honestly?- yes

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?-- not really. The customer service guy from CompUSA was very condescending so I kind of lost my diplomacy.

7. Honestly, do you watch the Disney channel?-- no

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?-- maybe Angelina Jolie

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?-- pleasant surprises

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?-- no

11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?-- pissed about my iPod

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?-- i don't think so.

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?-- yes

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?-- yes

15. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?-- no

16. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?-- this girl:


17. Honestly, have you been loyal in your current relationship?-- yes

18. Honestly, are you in denial?-- a little.

19. Honestly, would you rather be having sex right now?-- no. can't have too much.

20. Honestly, who are your best friends?-- apes, kerol, ate jing, julie

21. Honestly, do you like someone?-- yes

22. Honestly, does someone like you right now?-- i think so.

23. Honestly, have you ever laughed so hard you wet your pants?-- no

24. Honestly, are you tired of MySpace?-- never had an account. but i think it's so pedestrian now.

release...

I haven't been writing. Duh.

Writing has always saved me from having to keep things to myself. It is my excuse for whining, being furious, and all the gory things that are unhealthy for you.

But these days, I am just inarticulate, even when I write. Words don't flow as easily. And my frustrations are buried in the things that have to be accomplished, and, more positively, by the joys that the company of my family have brought. Kerol and Ricci being here is just a breath of fresh air. Tired, yes (Ricci is just tireless), but laughing. With them around, I see the value of bigger and more important things. And it becomes so apparent to me what type of people you should surround yourself with: people who care about you, people from whom you can learn from, people who will inspire you, and people who enjoy your company. It is only when you have such people around you that you can do these things for your world, to pay it forward.

I miss non-superficial relationships. I miss things having deeper meaning.

There should be more sensible people around.

Is it really easier if a person just would not care so much than for everyone to exert an effort to care a little more?

So, I look around me and there are so many things that I have been stalling on. My computer area is a mess: magazines, receipts, catalogues, everything. I haven't posted my NY pictures on multiply, I haven't written any reviews on all the movies I've seen for the past 2 months. I just have lost that energy. And finally, I am posting an entry here, you know, just because.

So this is the adult life. You have to balance work, family, relationships, dreams and aspirations. In reality, one of course outweighs the others. And this one might not even be what life is about. But, how exactly can we not tip off?

I'm rambling. I hate it. See, inarticulate.

that's when i love you

Apes and Biang - New York City 2006

When you can't quite match your clothes, when you laugh at your own jokes, that's when I love you, more than you know.

Cuz here's my promise made tonight, you can count on my for life, cuz that's when I love you, when nothing you do can change my mind.

When God just has so much for you to accomplish, and you're so far behind, you'll never die.

Apes, it might not mean so much to you, that I actually care for you so much. But you carry the exact same Body Shop hairbrush, and the exact same Vaseline Petroleum Jelly, you're just my soulmate, my twin, and you can't do anything about it. I'm always here okay, just remember that.