pangga said...
There will always be a bigger problem than mine. So I should just keep mine to myself right and remain as shallow as I seem.
that's true but only if you juxtapose your problems with everyone else's and take it at face value.
i think no one's problem is bigger than the one's who is going through it. if pain is relative, so are problems.
personally, when i have a dilemma, like kunwari, should i stay or should i go, i feel that my problema is bigger than the famine in somalia. sometimes i even thnk that at least in somalia, other people go out of their way to help, eh sa kin ako lang yung makaka help sa self ko when i don't know what to do, or when i'm not brave enough to take action, i feel well, helpless.
so really biang, no matter how petty you think you problem is, it's big coz it's yours.
does that make sense?
--> biang's reply:
ate jing!
yes it's perfectly clear. that's why i think it's okay to cry and to rant. and, it's okay too to ask for friends to just be there.
i've felt so alone lately. i mean, i always feel alone, and i always am. but this is the first time in months that i finally admitted to myslef that i am as vulnerable as any caffeinated girl with big emotions. and then i felt so alone. big time.
i have people around me asking how i am, just out of a habit. but seriously, do they really want to know even if i really do want to tell? whereas more often than not, they ask that because a polite answer is to ask them back, and then they will get to release.
maybe i should make it a point to ask the question first.
i guess this whole thing made me think that hey, they have issues, and mine is puny.
even if it's bigger than the famine in somalia. and you're right. at least the jolie-pitts will get to them somehow, right? hehehe.
love you, ate jing! and thanks as always!
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you're welcome.
and i love you back :)
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you know what, i attended this seminar before 'Problem Solving and Decision Making,' and problems were defined simply as the distance bewteen the actual and the ideal.
where are you biang, and where to you want to be? maybe by answering that you can take the first step in solving your problem ;-)
if i see a box of bravado sa grocery, i'll fedex a couple to you hahaha :p
labyu!
biang, i'm super super sorry for saying "lalong boo to me". that was very insensitive of me.
i know we've talked about this before. no problem is miniscule. it's how it pains you.
i'm just very broken right now, in every sense of the word broken. i'm sorry if i disregarded your feelings.
i feel for you, believe it or not. i think of you and what you're going through. i just really have no time to check up on anyone. i spend the "luxury" of my time dwelling on my feelings.
during those times we get to chat, i always see a sad face. diba, i told you? so i always go check the pics in san diego, and look at the series of pictures where ricci was copying your laugh, laughing really loud with you. i've always meant to drop you a line to ask where has this happy spirit gone.
i miss you b! ill be there soon...
then let's plan the great escape!
where am I and where do I want to be?
it's funny because I actually know the answer to that, but I don't know too at the same time. hmmm... maybe i don't then. so, please cross your fingers for me to take the first step and finally know.
sige fedex me some, ate jing! hahahha!
kerol, you made me cry.
i need to find this spirit back, yes. i guess it got tired of me being so melancholy that it left.
let's plan the great escape. that sounds really inviting!
love you kerol!
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